All I want is to be happy

I have not been able to find the right business suit which has good cutting and matches my budget, in addition, I have already spend on hair coloring and a pair of new glasses as well as seeing the chiropractor doctor at Camden Medical Centre...
Had only been meeting for drinks and simple meals with some new and old friends.

I also need to get more nicer casual wear for Fridays at work. Its important to have inner quality with a pleasant outer package to help me feel better about myself.

Was chattin online with my hair-stylist and she told me that she is setting up her own hair salon soon and even shared about her shop's name and location. I was also invited for the grand opening in March. I am sure I will see alot of people with commonalities ( maybe some people whom I used to know will be there too ) there as well as her partner there.

Yahoo answers

I tried Yahoo answers...
and I was really pleasantly surprised by some very appropriate and good answers from all over the world...

Cool...

The Joyful Flow- Good Vibrations

Feelings vibrate, just as all things in the universe do, at a particular frequency. Negative feelings like anger, guilt, and depression vibrate at low frequencies, while positive feelings like joy, appreciation, and passion vibrate at high frequencies. These high frequency vibrations make us feel good. This is why people and places that inspire and cultivate positive feelings have what we call good vibrations.

Good vibrations inspire health, happiness, and optimism. When we are tuned in to good vibrations, our bodies heal, our hearts open, and our minds shift toward the light. We see new possibilities and feel powerfully energized to follow our inner visions. At the same time, we feel relaxed and capable of manifesting these visions without giving in to stress or struggle. Good vibrations put us in a state of perfect receptivity so that we feel it is the energy flowing through us that accomplishes what needs to be done. We feel guided, supported, protected, and nourished within this joyful flow. We sometimes forget that we are allowed to feel this way all the time.

Lower frequency vibrations are not bad in a moral sense, but they are bad in the sense that they simply don't feel good. Still, they have a purpose, which is to alert us to the fact that we are blocking out the higher frequency vibrations that we need to function well. They are a call for healing ourselves from within. The key to our healing lies in remembering that it is our birthright to feel good and that feeling good is the essence of our true nature. When we are receiving and sending out good vibrations, we are in the flow. When we are not, we can begin to raise our vibration by seeking out people, places, and situations that vibrate at a higher frequency. Whether we need to go on retreat or just call a friend who makes us laugh, seeking out those good vibrations and basking in them is a sacred and loving practice that returns us, time and again, to the joyful flow of the universe.
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I didnt have to work today, but unfortunately I still have not quite recovered from the cold. Nevertheless I still went to Orchard for my skin theraphy. I didnt call for appointment and rejected because when I reached there, then I realised they have moved to Nee Ann City. It was my first time in the new office or rather hub, its really look much sophiscated than the old office [ many years ]. I was asking the Dr how to hasten the process to see more improvement. He said, his work on me is not done... told me not to worry as he is confident to make it better. It felt good to hear it... but its going to cost loh. The new staff nurses are really friendly [ in the non-intimading way ] ...

M told me off today to wake up. She was right. I thank you for a true friend.

Physically weak

K was sharing with me how our emotions will cause our body to be sick last week but I didnt think much of it cos I thought I have been managing well. However since last Wed I suddently remember about things and it really affected my mood that on Friday night I fell sick....

It kinda spoil my plans to get facial, hit the gym, new office suits and body wash from body shop and meeting people over the weekend.

Speaking of gym I really like the Novena branch because the ladies changing room is better ( actually I only love the hair dryer lol ) but its small and its next to . Its kinda different from Orchard where most people in there are to parade themselves lol which I dont care, I just observe the difference in the crowd at both branches.

Here's a good article on self nurture to remind myself and everyone.

Often demonstrate to yourself you love yourself.

Take out time each day to give yourself joy.
Speak up for yourself when another is hurting you.
Forgive yourself when you make so-called mistakes
Follow your highest joy.
Do what you love or love what you do.
Make time for hobbies, your family, and solitude.
Practicing "Right Use of Will" is a key form of loving yourself!
Enjoy your own company.
Buy yourself flowers, surrounding yourself with colors, textures, and scents that please you.
Discover what makes you happy, what you love to do; pamper and spoil yourself.
Treat yourself to small /medium /large / gigantic acts of kindness and appreciation.
Become your own best friend.
Always listen to and follow your intuition/Higher Self.

cool illusion

Check out this cool illusion...
This cool illusion proves we don't always see what we think we see...

The Bottle Tree Village

I was driving to my friend's condo... but decided to detour to check out The Bottle Tree Village which was on the way.

Kinda disappointed and thought they could do much better... maybe its still relatively new... Hopefully it will feel more vibrant with the rustic kampong feel..Anyway I will bring my nephew to try the fishing in the children fishing pond, am sure he will find it interesting.

This week started lousy and took it worst turn when i woke up feverish... All the negative condemning thoughts flushed into my mind... I know God only intent us to live in abundance of wealth, happiness and love. Its my job to guard against and replace negative thoughts with the positive affirmations, so that God can work through me...

Crab shack

I went to Crab Shack along Upper Thomson road for dinner tonight. They are famous for cheap flower craps but none of us were feeling 'hardworking' to have flower craps so we had others snacks...and its good too... I will check out that place again just for crabs...

This morning woke up feeling down... all the negative thought come rushing into my concsiousness ... I know I have to replace with positive thoughts immediately... I felt weak this morning...and couldnt really fight it... Even didnt realise I had not applied enough hair clay thus got a bad hair day too. Thought to meet up new people tonight, may help to distract me, but it actually kinda make me felt worst... Tonight I will keep reminding myself to think differently..

There's really nothing left for me, except to be grateful to what's left... which is me... ( ironic ?! )

Tmr is my last day, i think the news were only out today...
some friends I made in other department send me email asking me what happened and why... anyway, most of them wishes me well. I am thankful that even the Head of Department offered me to reconsider resigning. However, although I do like the stability and manage-able work, I know I should do more than this and gain experience in bigger companies.

One thing I must remember is that what I believe about life, and what I deserve will be mirrored in life to me... I must be careful. I am listening to Louise Hay's Receiving Prosperity, wealth and success and I highly recommended to all!

Considering Others - Reaffirming Our Integrity from dailyOM.com

Every thought we think and every action we take has an effect on the world around us. To be aware of this is to be conscious of our impact on the people in our lives. Sometimes we just want to do what we want to do, but considering the full ramifications of our actions can be an important part of our spiritual growth and awareness. At first, being more conscious requires effort, but once we have made it a habit, it becomes second nature. The more we practice this awareness of others, the more we find ourselves in easy alignment with our integrity.

Our thoughts are an important place to begin this practice because our thoughts are the seeds of our actions. It is not necessary or beneficial to obsessively monitor all our thoughts, but we can perhaps choose one thought or action per day and simply notice if we are in alignment with this experience of integrity. For example, we may find ourselves replaying a negative encounter with someone in our minds. We may think that this doesn’t affect the person about whom we are thinking, but the laws of energy tell us that it does. When we hold someone negatively in our minds, we risk trapping them in negativity. If we were this person, we might wish for forgiveness and release. We can offer this by simply letting go of the negative thought and replacing it with a wish for healing on that person’s behalf.

With regard to our actions, we may have something difficult to express to someone. Taking the time to consider how we would feel if we were in his or her shoes will enable us to communicate more sensitively than we would if we just expressed ourselves from our own perspective. When we modify our approach by taking someone else’s feelings into account, we bring benefit to that person and ourselves equally. The more we do this, the more we reaffirm our integrity and the integrity of our relationship to the world.

One last dance

Caught the movie One Last dance...
I like the main background music however, I was kinda disappointed by the script although the cinematography is not bad.

It was freezing cold in the cinema @ vivocity... The place is still full of people... We managed to get a seat with great view at Sushi Tei for dinner. It was rather interesting topics we talked about. I got a shock when KR told me she needs to confess something with me and ask me not to be angry when I got back from the restroom. I hardly know KR and was very puzzled in our short days what could have happened. It turns out it was something about her that she didnt tell me and she felt that she needs to be honest. Anyway after hearing what it was, I just looked at her and ask "and why would I be angry?"...

It was nice to make another new friend apart from the hair stylist...

孙燕姿 - 逃亡

This is my favourite song which I have been looking for some time already.

How To Be A Better Partner

Be romantic
Never disparage yourself.
Always be honest.
Do not do things just to keep your partner happy.
Do not ask your partner to do things you know they don't want to do.
Do not belittle your partner.
Do not put off things you have promised to do.
Always be there for your partner.
Communicate.
Do not commit adultery or other harmful acts against your relationship.
Treat your partner with respect.
Be open and receptive to your partner's wants and wishes.

Packed Sat...

Arranged to see Dr Bruce Lee the chiropractor at Camden Medical centre at 9am so that I have sufficient time to go to Stamford House to color my hair at 11.30am

After Dr Lee had perform 'shifting' my neck and left shoulder blade... I was hungry and treated myself to Mc Donald breakfast at Tanglin Mall which was already 11am when I was done.
Nonetheless, I was told by Dr Lee the pain was due to the bones shifted out of alighnment and he could felt the shifts in hip, neck and shoulder blade... He said it would need some time since it was a result of accumulated shifts from hip right up to the neck. The bones will need some time to re-adjust back too.

In between I also spend 15mins in That CD shop and purchased "High Society Mansion 3" just because it was a pretty lady recommending it to me :P


Anyway I went Hair Folio again and this time round, my hair stylist spoke more to me in terms sharing her 'coming out' stories. It was quite interesting to hear her stories. Most of all, I am happy to have gotten acquainted with her more this year despite the fact we had exchanged contact numbers one year ago.


Catch this video

The GOD's Boxes

"I am God. Today I will be handling all of your
problems. Please remember that I do not need your help.
If life happens to deliver a situation to you that
you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it.
Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do)
box. It will be addressed in My time, not yours."

"Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold
on to it or remove it. Holding on or removal will
delay the resolution of your problem. If it is a
situation that you think you are capable of handling,
please consult me in prayer to be sure that it is
the proper resolution."

" Because I do not sleep nor do I slumber, there is no
need for you to lose any sleep. Rest my child. If you
need to contact me, I am only a prayer away."
" Be happy with what you have: Should you find it hard
to get to sleep tonight; Just remember the homeless
family who has no bed to lie in."

" Should you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don't despair.
There are people in this world for whom driving is an
unheard of privilege."

" Should you have a bad day at work;
Think of the man who has been out of work for years."

" Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of
the person who has never known what it's like to love
and be loved in return."

" Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think
of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours
a day, seven days a week to feed her children."

" Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from
assistance; Think of the paraplegic who would love
the opportunity to take that walk."

" Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror; Think
of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had
hair to examine."

" Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what
is life all about, asking "what is my purpose?";
Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough
to get that opportunity."

" Should you find yourself the victim of other people's
bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; Remember,
things could be worse. You could be them!"


Check out Message of a Master
Listen to >Love Letter

Article on love

The 1st. Golden Key to relationships: "I am willing to give my partner what they need, not what I need to give them." If your love partner likes blue, do not buy them a shirt that is yellow, because you like yellow. Take their true desires into consideration, and give them what they need.

The 2nd. Golden Key to relationships: "I put my partner first, above all else." If you are busy with work and leave your love partner to 'die on the vine', then they loose, and you will eventually be seeking someone else. Abandonment is abandonment, regardless of the age of the person. Most people already have abandonment issues that they deal with.
When you also abandon your mate, you create deep pain for them. Like the sun, nurture your partner, and shine your love upon them.

The 3rd. Golden Key to relationships: "Give your partner the right of free will, freedom, and the right of choice." If you treat your mate like a child, you will soon be their mother. This then, is no longer an adult relationship, and it is not healthy for either partner. If you feel a need to dominate your partner, you are coming from fear. Deal with your childhood issues, and your feelings about your mate will change for the better.

Even before you find love, get to know the 3 Golden keys, and start to practice them in your daily life. These keys should become second nature for you. When they do, you will have a greater chance of attracting the true love that you seek.

Hogs Breath @ Chimes

I met someone from my current workplace who is burmese. He was very a nice and friendly guy. I happened to talk more with him in the afternoon after he was sharing to us about the interesting facts about burmese name... Its really interesting, like you can tell which day a person is born based on their name as well as their age but you cannot tell who's the father because they dont have surname. Anyway as I was talking to him in the afternoon, he shared about his goals and I was impressed that he was selfless as he said he cannot only think of himself and just go for his masters, he should support financially his 2 younger sisters's education so that they can have better prospect, so he has to forgo his master course. I told him there will always be opportunity to take up the study again. We also shared about cultures for different countries. However we cant talk too long, I was surprised that he gave me his contact number to stay in contact. He said he enjoyed talking to me and he finds me different from usual Singaporean gals... I replied with a smile maybe its because I lived aboard before. ( of cos on the inside I know I am very different from 'general' gals ;P )


I went for dinner with new colleagues tonight. It was organized by the company for project kick off celebrations. It was @ Hogs Breath, really nice place with great food. I do recommend this place .

If it was years ago or even months ago, I will find it difficult to mingle with new faces. I guess it was also a case of "had to make it" too. Remembering what K told me ( just wear a smile and lady luck will smile @ you ) I just smile and introduce myself to new people. It also helped tremensously that they are from consulting line and are receptive people, thus they were friendly and professional to introduce me to the rest too.

After mingling around ( no I wasnt really doing alot of talking but tried my best to listen actively ), it was time to find a place to sit down for dinner. I noticed a sweet looking and attractive(to me) gal came later during the mingling session and thought she was my ex colleage and was alittle uncomfortable as I dont wish to work with that ex colleague. When I sat down on, moments later i was pleasantly surprised that she sat in front of me. She was friendly and we talked abit. Her name is S I found out she is another person not my ex colleague and that we will be on the same team... :P

The manager was also very friendly and sporting. She came up with playing games at dinner table to get to know people better. Of course those were very 'outrageous' games. However, through the games I noticed there are some similarities between me and S. I was also conscious to keep it professional.

I sms KR that I had dinner plans which I forgotten, so I cannot go to the movie with her. I felt alittle bad because it was me who asked her out for movie in the first place and I actually forgotten about the dinner plans with my new company. I of course apologised to her especially she thought she was meeting me and had to change her plans.

Hmm..

I am starting my exercise regime and its great to sweat but it would have been better if my left shoulder blade and neck is not aching so much.

My shoulder blade is aching and its getting from bad to worse, thus I make appointment to see the Chiropractic doctor whose name happens to be "Bruce Lee"... I thought it was rather corny because his name is "Bruce Lee"... but he was highly recommended by my friend, so I will pay him a visit this sat. I need to fix this so that I can increase my energy level, and feel better too.

sweating cooly

I have been writing my thoughts and feelings lately and I guess it did help to sort my thoughts and release pent up anger... But the best part is striding away on the gym equipement .

I decided to visit the newest outlet at Novena. Its small place compared to Orchard branch, but the ladies changing room is so much better!

I kinda like the new expanded Novena, especially shopping at Espirit, so cute once I wanted a blouse but they dont have my size so I have to just need to walk over to United Square and I get it haha... somehow I find that cute..

Anyway, starbucks @ united square is a place of memory but I choose not to think about it, all its in the past.

The law of Gratitude.
I am grateful that I have more freedom now and to have love ( inside me )to the right woman.

mindless bus passengers

I have to take bus 13 to the nearest MRT from work, and its always crowded during the off work timing.

Its really irritating, that nobody cares or bothered to be considerate. The bus captain often stood up to ask passengers to move in to let people at the bus stop to board the bus, and adults/students just stood there expressionless.

Lesson today.

When Jesus said, "All things whatsoever ye pray and ask for, believe that ye receive them and ye shall have them," he was uttering one of those many deep truths that were so clear to Him and that we are just beginning to see. He knew that everything is made out of mind and that without that positive acceptance on the part of the individual there is no mold into which mind can pour itself forth into form. In the mind of God there is the correct mold, the true knowing, but in the mind of man there is not always this true knowing. Since God can do for us only by doing through us, nothing can be done for us unless we are positively receptive, but when we realize the law and how it works, then we will provide that complete inner acceptance. By so doing we permit the Spirit to do the work, to make the gift.

The reason we can make our requests known with thanksgiving is because we know from the beginning that we are to receive and therefore we cannot help being thankful. This grateful attitude to the Spirit puts us in very close touch with power and adds much to the reality of the thing that we are dealing with. Without it we can do but little. So let us cultivate all the gratitude that we can. In gratitude we will send our thoughts out into the world, and as it comes back it will come laden with the fruits of the Spirit.

http://www.sacred-texts.com/nth/cms/cms13.htm

Freedom and re-energise

I was driving around and really the feeling of in control and a good time for me to refresh my mind.

10 choices you must make each day to GUARANTEE that you are on the road to GREATNESS...

Since its new year: Lets be reminded to:

Choose to be ENERGETIC—instead of permitting yourself to become run-down and burned-out.

Choose to be PASSIONATE—instead of permitting yourself to become aimless, apathetic and indifferent.

Choose to be ENTHUSIASTIC—instead of permitting yourself to become half-hearted and discouraged.

Choose to be SELF-DIRECTED—instead of permitting yourself to become directionless and uncertain.

Choose to be PREPARED—instead of permitting yourself to become shortsighted and reactive.

Choose to be FOCUSED—instead of permitting yourself to become scattered and impulsive.

Choose to be SUPPORTIVE—instead of permitting yourself to become critical and judgmental.

Choose to be SYSTEMATIC—instead of permitting yourself to become haphazard and disorganized.

Choose to be TIMELY—instead of permitting yourself to become distracted and preoccupied.

Choose to be PROACTIVE—instead of permitting yourself to become procrastinating and hesitant.

Nothing much to write about

I am actively looking for a place to stay and keeping myself busy with stuff.

I am also doing some major shopping before GST goes up.
such as a new pair of glasses, a mont blanc pen/wallet, color my hair ( its once a year thing ), hop into gym, more new clothes ( office and casual ) and maybe a car.

Currently reading some stuff and getting spiritual enlightment.
We only live once, I have been too rigid so I want to enjoy more now...
Looking forward to meet nice, pleasant, sincere, sensible lady ...