Things must change for the better

I cannot keep repeating undesirable patterns that only cause me more hurt emotionally and physically.

I am not the person I was.
I know what I want and I will pursue my goals diligently.
My priority will be my relationship, health and career...

Be a better man

I must raise my self-awareness
be more thoughtful to those around me...

I really wish I could woo R....

Love..

Missing the warm of your touch...
Missing the softness of your kiss...
Missing the sweet fragrance of your hair
Missing the connection of two hearts thats beating in a same tune...

Alas

I have come to grow very fond of R, even though I did'nt pay attention to R when R joined the project because I noticed the very huge rock on R's finger and hence keep my distance since I figure will be out of my reach.

Unfortunately, I still found myself suddenly grew fond of R just when R is about to roll out of the project. I am slightly sad and very envious of R's partner, to be able to spend life with R.

R really mirrors my ideal/perfect partner, practical, sensible, smart, tactful, gentle, cool, fun-loving, sweet.