A flood came and a man had to climb onto the roof of his house. As the waters rose a neighbor in a rowboat appeared, and told him to get in. "No," replied the man on the roof, "the Lord will save me." Then a firefighter appeared in a speedboat. "Climb in!" shouted the firefighter. "No," replied the man on the roof, "The Lord will save me." A helicopter appeared and the pilot shouted that he would lower a rope to the man on the roof. "No," replied the man on the roof, "the Lord will save me." Eventually the man drowned and went to heaven, where he asked God why He hadn't helped him. "I sent a neighbor, a firefighter, and helicopter," said God. "What more do you want?"

The pursuit of happiness

Movie plot:
Chris Gardner (Will Smith) is a struggling salesman. After failing to make ends meet, Gardner finds himself and his son evicted from their San Francisco apartment with nowhere to go. When he works as an intern at a prestigious stock brokerage firm, he and his son encounter many difficulties. Despite his troubles, Chris continues to honour his commitment as a loving and caring father, using the affection and trust his son has placed in him as an impetus to overcome the problems he faces.

My view:
One has to be find out what his strength, hardwork and determination, committed, be a people person to reach his desire to be happy. I am really glad that I catch this movie today.


I met a new friend today and am glad to make a new friend. New friend felt like having steak...and I immediately recommended Hog breath Cafe... and so happened she was thinking of the same place. We had a game of billard after lunch but I suck badly ...

Enjoying my work

I do like being in implementation projects again, it is definitely not as boring as maintaining the system, and I dont have to face end user's all kind of weird problems...

However, one of my colleague is alittle getting on my nerve... I really need to be more patient with inexperience... It does not make me feel any better too..

Other than that, my back problem re-surfaced, guess I need to be more disclipine to see my Chiropractor doctor.

I am still very defaulted ... I still unconciously pressed her number on my hp...
and only half way, realised I cant do that...

I was walking along this street near to somerset... and like the feeling of exploring places... I do like the condos around there... I also think its good location with alot of great food around.

Missing ingredient : Me, Her, Motivation.
Reminder : do something worthwhile, I am important...
New: Found this Accurate personality test

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How to Attract the Love of Your Life

1. FORGIVE YOURSELF for your past mistakes. You are only human. Look at yourself with kind eyes.

2. FORGIVE OTHERS for any injustices that they have committed against you.

3. MAKE AMENDS to those whom you have harmed, unless your making amends would harm them more.

4. CULTIVATE AN ATTITUDE OF GRATITUDE

There is a Law of Gratitude, and you must observe the law, if you are to get the results you seek. The law of gratitude is the natural principle that action and reaction are equal, and in opposite directions.

Don't say you love me unless you really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it.

- Anonymous



Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are a good person is a little like expecting the bull not to attack you because you are a vegetarian." - Dennis Wholey

As I read this quote, I thought it really makes a lot of sense to be smart in every area of my life... be if with friends, colleagues and family... be smart, just because you are nice, it doesnt meant you wont be hurt, manipulated, used...even by the ones closest to your heart...

There's a chinese saying, which literally translated. Always beware of others but never plan a thought of evil against anyone.

Why?

Why I have not found success in work, relationship? Why I have attracted to myself those who were either not available or not the right fit...

Worst my family suck, constantly lay guilt upon me... They just did again.
This time I told myself I have other things more important...my own growth...

A thought came to me, I will just write out a cheque and then demand no more laying of guilt trips on me and I will move out immediately cutting off all ties...

Well many people may think I am being mean or unfilial. I thought over it many years already, I realised nothing I do will ever satisfy their endless pit of demands.

On another note, what actions does one do will render it as not having self respect???

Had no plans

Thank you for the well wishes for those who either emailed/sms-ed/called and especially grateful for those who accompanied me on my birthday. I really appreciated it very much. I do value friendship no matter what depth they are... :)

Actually i really didnt plan anything at all... since M and K so engrossed in their own life...and I still have not been feeling on top of things...( eventhough its much better now ). Thus I really appreciate even an impromptu arrangement to go Kbox. It was a fun night cos I used to do this with L. I was surprised S turned up later too. lol... I understand u gals were also kinda of tired from your family cny stuffs...


Work demand is picking up and I will brace myself to see it through. I really like to make a mark in this new company... So many happening things ...

The female colleague will be joining our project soon and will be sitting quite near to me, I must concentrate and buck up too... Hmm I wonder if the active in the company might be wooing this female colleague or maybe they are already seeing each other... I am now so eager to 'upgrade' again my wardrobe to be more like the active lol... Since nobody seems to be bothered at the chinese new year lunch in office...


I went to gym in the afternoon (17 Feb 2007) and was approached by a indian fitness gym trainer... He is very friendly and very insistent to guide me through some basic which he thinks would be beneficial to me for loosing weight even after I had declined to take up private trainer ( which translate into additional 4 figures )... None-the-less, he was still sounding very nice and insisted to show me which are the machine i should concentrate on and how to use them effective to loose weight.
My original plan was to go to gym and then go for a massage, but I left home only around 2 pm and by the time i was done with gym, MyFoot was closing already and I was left with shopping. I bought a new pair of shoes for work, but wanted to wait abit to see if any discount package will be out for woman blazers at Espirit.

blower's daugther

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D95BuqLh40c

you dont know me...

You give your hand to me
Then you say hello
I can hardly speak
My heart is beating so
And anyone can tell
You think you know me well
But you don't know me
No, you don't know the one
Who dreams of you at night
And longs to kiss your lips
And longs to hold you tight
Oh I'm just a friend
That's all I've ever been
'Cause you don't know me
I never knew
The art of making love
Though my heart aches
With love for you
Afraid and shy
I've let my chance to go by
The chance that you might
Love me, too
You give your hand to me
And then you say good-bye
I watch you walk away
Beside the lucky guy
You'll never never know
The one who loves you so
Well, you don't know me
You give your hand to me, baby
Then you say good-bye
I watch you walk away
Beside the lucky guy
No, no, you'll never ever know
The one who loves you so
Well, you don't know me

company function

I was at the company lunch function and I was hoping to see that colleague who has not joined the project group...

When I found her, I found myself not confident to walk up to talk to her... anyway I was introduced to another colleague from the same workforce...gosh she is obviously gay, because her dressing was so guyish, I noted that my senior from the project was so comfortable with her... It was very exciting to me cos it would meant that I can be a little more obvious...haha

I didnt talk much to the PLU anyway later I noticed she was hanging out with the colleage that I was rather 'have some interest' in... Kinda envious...( little green monster in me )..

Chinese New Year lunch

Went for the client cum company Chinese New Year lunch, it was really fun because we have a few really funny ( young ) male colleagues with us...and everyone on the table were quite sporty or easy going.

Our table also ordered additional food on top of what was included in the Chinese New Year lunch... and we over ordered...so each of us ate quite a fair bit...

I regret not preparing for the presentation which was after the lunch. After the presentation my boss immediately did a review. I really appreciate this new environment because they 'motivate' and encourage rather than criticize...

haha, another embarrassing thing, my pant's hook was 'broken' after the lunch... guess I need to hit the gym asap...

Catch up

I met L for dinner tonight, its so great to catch up with an old friend. Time flies, we have not met for 2/3 years... L loves my new pair of glasses so much that she feels like getting one for herself too...

I am happy to hear L found new love and things are going on well for her...
We agreed to do our usual stuff ( singing and billard ) after 15th when her partner is not in town.

I also took the opportunity to ask L her views on age gap in relationship. I admit I do have a preference of a limit of 5 years. L said it does not matter but there are certain limits (moral issues etc which we both agreed ) . This is rather interesting, it all arises after meeting up a young but rather down-to-earth gal...

Does age gap matters?

I met someone from the net today in person. She is young gal so I didnt thought much other than to want to know more people.

We chatted for quite a bit.... from 630 to 9pm, it was quite well and fortunately not very awkward. However, there was a little "heat" when she asked me about age gap. It started when I was talking about teachers should not be dating or having affair when their students. Then she started to ask what if both younger and older are no longer in school, and why I object big age gap and what is my acceptable age gap... wow I was feeling alittle cornered during for a short moment...then she told me she was seeing someone who was 16yrs older than her, we went on to talk about other stuffs. It was interesting, there after I realised it was already 9pm so I suggested to call it a night... I waited with her for her train and we ended with a good note to keep in contact.

Out of politeness, I send sms to thank her for a pleasant night out. I was surprised that she replied that she was kinda affected that she forgotten there are people who do not like very young gals as partner and that she was looking for a older partner.

I really didnt know what to say but to reply that I too forgotten there are young gals who want to be with much older partners.....

The truth is I never felt comfortable for big age gap... and find it quite hard to believe...
Anyway that's just me...

Yul - My role model

I have long given up watching US's reality show - Survivor but I did catch the season on Cooks island.

I really admire and impressed with Yul. He plays the game with slight difference to most other people where there were alot of fake-ness and scheming.

Yul is smart, kind, determined, principled and loyal. Everything I want to be too.
I am even more surprised to finally learned that we are both Aquarius!!! and our birthdays are 4 days apart. I have limited myself too much, I can be as great as him...

Work

So far the 2 weeks in new company is still pleasant..
I am mindful of changing certain bad habits... and keeping a postive frame of mind...

Waiting for catching up

L called me on the phone, she is still so chirpy. She has flew all the way from Canada ( think her partner is Singapore too ) , didnt chat more other than to quickly fix a time to catch up after she comes back from her trip.

sunday @ flea markets

Went to MAAD and flea market @ zouk. After our day of flea market, G suggested to join forces and set up a 'Ex-terminate' stall to sell the stuffs we dont want. I think it a good idea!

I was feeling insecure and trying very hard to hide it in but I guessed I should not have tried to call anyone when feeling insecure.

Nevertheless, I hit the gym as planned... it was a short workout for me cos I didnt feel very motivated today.

In the shower room, there was a small incident happened. A lady actually apparently worked out and called out for help in the shower room.

At first I thought she was only deep in thought when I noticed her sitting naked only using the towel to cover herself...
As I went on with my own stuff, I heard someone moaning in pain... I check out the direction of the sound and realised it was the same lady. This time she was sitting in the floor and she said she cant see anything...
I told the aunties that she must be fainting soon... (cos I had similar experiences of not able to see things before I passed out). Anyway the cleaning lady and the security guard lady assisted her with medicated oil and massaging her to assist blood flow...

Well its really important to know your own limits...

Short day

It was a rather pleasant day at work, because it ended at 3.30pm today and I managed to get to know some of my new colleagues better after that as we went to the nearby coffeeshop to chat up.

I was sharing to them that I am on diet and need to loose another 5 kgs and I lost the first 5 kg mainly through having one meal a day. Of course all of them said that was bad, and the other young chap then suggested that he will start a jogging session and I could join them so as to lose weight the right way. lol

So far, the environment is still good and it gives me opportunity to shape up my communication skills too (hopefully).

Hmm someone mistook me for something else, somehow it sort of give new energy to focus on jogging soon, just in line with the jogging session with new colleagues.