Am I living ?

Everything always starts with the first small step. So first just take some time for yourself - now! Take a long walk. Take enough time to thoroughly listen to your favourite CD. Call your friend and tell her how you feel about her.

Whatever! Don't forget you are here to live. Don't wait for money to start dictating you your happiness - rather start enjoying yourself and living right now. You will discover that you can do many things you enjoy without much money, or without the money you presently might not have. And this is going to turn in to your fastest, most joyful and most certain path to wealth.
Because money packed with happiness can only be obtained once you are clearly certain you don't need it any more...
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This is the path to wealth that leads through the heart!

Dream Date by Sign (Part 2)

Who's the perfect date according to your stars?

by Maryam Henein
Published: 05/24/2007 Send This Article To a Friend



Chemistry is a mysterious thing. But with astrology as your guide, understanding your date's sun sign can give you priceless insight into a potential lover. What excites a hedonistic Archer may make a Pisces freeze up like a cold fish. Check out our second installment of Dream Date by Sign, featuring the six remaining signs of the Zodiac, to give you a head-start on romance.



Libra: Starry-eyed Glamour Puss
If you ask a Libra out, elegance and romance should run in your blood. These airy creatures thrive on all things wistful and beautiful. Think a candlelit dinner at your place, with soft, exotic music, rose petals scattered all about and a small gift presented at the door. Spring for something other than flowers - a shiny, tasteful trinket or a box of chocolate covered strawberries, perhaps? Creativity goes a long way here. FYI: Libras don't fare well being single and love being in love. Although, they are good at fooling themselves, which may mean you too. Take things slowly.

Scorpio: Mysterious Sexpot
Your Scorpio likes secretive, dark places. Go for the unusual like strolling through a cemetery at dusk to get up-close-and-personal with a few gravestones. Then head over to the seediest Italian restaurant you can find, where just the two of you can tell ghost stories and sip red wine at a candlelit table way in the back. Make sure you wear something sexy and splash on an alluring scent. The more mysterious you are, the better. Remember, you're dealing with the sex god of the zodiac here. Try a come-hither look or a mysterious stare on your scorpion. Then, brace yourself for intensity like you've never felt before.


Sagittarius: Nimble Flirt or Sexy Beast?
The Archer likes movement, so come up with action-packed date ideas. Consider dancing under the stars, take a power yoga class, go rollerblading along the beach or climb a mountain with bread and wine in your backpack to celebrate at the top. Don't hold back on conversation either. Your Sagittarius can handle it so talk about your wildest dreams and your desired adventures. By the way, this fiery half animal/half human is full of optimism and enthusiasm and they're actually quite the sexy beast. So if they dig you, they'll want to explore you more deeply. In other words, they're probably up for more, if you are.



Capricorn: Straight-up Rambunctious Lover
Capricorns love responsible, authentic and intelligent people. So if you want to impress them, show your smarts and don't be a fake. Goats are ruled by Saturn (the planet of structure and authority), meaning they'll appreciate a rundown of your proposed itinerary. Take a trip to the botanical gardens (Cappies are creatures of the earth) followed by a trip to a crystal shop for a perusal. Conclude the evening at a fancy restaurant where reservations are required. Capricorns are a bit reserved, so you may find yourself wondering if they are attracted to you. Be patient, behind that cool exterior lies a rambunctious lover.



Aquarius: Lover of Offbeat Sensibility
Your Aquarian is a lover of knowledge with a streak of unpredictability. Dazzle them - take them to a lecture on global warming, to a debate on immigrant reform or ask them to check out the new museum of Neon Signs. They'll be ecstatic! Next, have them escort you to that benefit you've been invited to. Don't expect to get serious right away, these idealistic souls are unconventional and love freedom. However, if your water bearer can openly share their thoughts with you, they'll want to ravish you in bed later.



Pisces: Sensitive and True!
Pisceans need to feel safe, cozy and comfortable. Take your fishy date to a spa for tandem foot massages followed by a trip to an aquarium. Then, top the evening off with romantic drinks and nibbles from the sea. Pisceans don't like confrontation so if the date is going sour they may simply excuse themselves to go to the restroom and then swim away. But if there's an attraction, you'll know it - they'll touch you and gush for no reason when your eyes meet. They tend to get caught up in the moment, so if a date is going smoothly they can be very impulsive. Wink. Wink.

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Forgive Yourself
3 ways to help leave the past in the past

by A.K. Boyle
Published: 05/15/2007 Send This Article To a Friend




We all make mistakes. It's part of the legacy of being human. Sometimes we even get so caught up in blaming ourselves for "mistakes" that we lose sight of what the past really is - a path to our present self. If you're caught up in the language and thought process of woulda, coulda, shoulda, it's time to stop!

Go easy on yourself. Offer yourself the kind of unconditional love you give others, and you'll be amazed at the healing and empowerment you'll find.


If that isn't enough reason for letting go of days (and ways) gone by, here are a few more:


What's wrong now was right at the time
There may have been a career path you'd have chosen that would have made you a higher earner by now, but you would have missed out on all those adventures that made you you. You might not have stayed in that relationship had you known what you know now - but you didn't. You knew you needed the love, the safety or the challenges you were getting there. Don't sell your past self short. We make decisions based on our best guesses at the time. And who knows? Those guesses could have been better for you than you know.


The road not taken isn't on the map
Do you know why the grass is always greener on the other side? Because we can't quite make it there from here. You don't know what would have happened had you made different choices. If you hadn't called it off with your ex, do you really know that you'd be happy? If you'd left your dead-end job earlier, who's to say you'd be in your dream job now?


Instead of worrying about what wasn't (or what you think "should" have been"), concentrate on making choices that help you be you who you want to be now. Maybe you wish you hadn't strayed in your last relationship. Great - don't do it in this one! But that doesn't mean you and your ex would have found bliss together. There are unexpected things we cannot control along life's journey and you can't know how things "would" have turned out. What we can control is who we are and how we react to the challenges (unexpected and otherwise) that arise.


Don't regret growth
So you know now that if you had a do-over, you'd make some different choices. Stop beating yourself up and instead, take that as a measure of success! Look how far you've come! If the goal is to one day be wiser than we are, then being wiser than we were is actually an achievement. But that achievement is only possible if you can see a decision or two as a misguided, immature or just plain dumb.


If you can look back on a past you and know you wouldn't make the same mistakes - different ones, perhaps, but not the same ones - then congratulations! That's how you know you're doing it right.

Tired

Extremely tired from work, there's so much to do, and I am frustrated that my team, I am only one who is most experienced. It tires me out cos my team leads would get my help in almost every thing. I am also doing quite alot for him and also involved in Solution Integration. I know he has alot on his plate too but I just thought its a little slave driving to be expecting one to finish so much. Luckily there's not much politics and people are generally respectful and friendly. Anyway, I am just upset/annoyed that although my performance has been rated outperform ( ie above expectation ), I am still a few months short to be promoted in the coming promotion cycle, and I have to wait till the next round. I wish I will continue to keep up the "good work" and keep in the good books of all the respective boss in the project to get the promotion I deserve.

I was told that there will be salary increment for this time round. Hopefully it will be a good one.

Dream Date by Sign (Part 1)

Aries: Rams Like it Hot
Rams are impetuous and fiery creatures. They thrive on excitement. If you're planning a date, consider an activity that involves a little bit of adventure. Break a sweat on a difficult hiking trail, then grab some Ethiopian fare where you get to eat with your hands. By the way, don't worry about being a little sweaty, your Aries won't mind. Oh, and don't forget to play hard to get since most Aries prefer to be the cat rather than the mouse. These types can also come on strong so don't be surprised if they swoop in for a kiss before the date concludes. Yeooowza!


Taurus: Lover of the Finer Things in Life
Ruled by Venus, your Taurus will appreciate the finer tastes of life. Bring them flowers and make the bouquet consist of Gerber daisies or Sunflowers rather than cheap carnations or boring roses. For dinner, take them to a fine dining establishment replete with tablecloths, soft (hip) music and romantic lighting. Taurus loves soft, sexy fabrics that feel good against the skin, so leave your favorite jeans in the closet and reach for a silky skirt or shirt instead. Once you're alone, don't be afraid to let your intentions known in a tender, firm manner.


Gemini: Social Butterfly
Your Gemini date is verbal, quick-witted and impulsive. They expect you to be the same. The twins don't do boring. Escort them to an underground book reading, energetic concert or poetry slam session. Then walk the streets until you spontaneously find a quaint little bar where you can sip mojitos and engage in mental banter. Always stay on your toes and ask a lot of questions. If you want to really romp later, you'll have to make stimulating mental love first.


Cancer: Domestic Bliss
To impress your Cancer and lure them come out of their shell, you must show a nurturing, attentive nature. Bust out a cookbook and invite them over for a candlelit meal. Too much stimulation in a public place can backfire with a sensitive crab. Make sure your place feels cozy and warm. The more you fuss over them, the more they will trust your intentions. Ask: "Are you okay?" or "Is there anything you need?" a lot. Consider yourself warned, Cancers go with their own flow. Meaning, these water signs are moody. So make sure you pay attention to the feelings behind their words and don't come on too strong.


Leo: King of the Jungle
You're dealing with the King of the Jungle here. Meaning, your Leo date needs to be wined and dined and taken out in high style. Factor in a little bit of drama for good measure - invite them to a loud concert or theatrical production followed by the hippest new late-night eatery. Be sure to discuss culture, politics and the most recent worldly events. While you're at it, don't forget to pet their mane (read: ego) by dousing them with compliments and making sure they get to speak most of the time. Play with their hair and whisper into their ear to make them purr with pleasure now, and roar for you later.


Virgo: Willing and Wise
If you're planning a date with a Virgo make sure you appear fresh and polished! Shower, use Q-tips and iron your shirt or dress. These perfectionists won't tolerate slovenliness. These virgins (who aren't really virgins) are also conscientious about their health, so take them to your gym for a tag-team workout and then to a healthy Vegan restaurant. Over a desert of soy ice cream and goji berries ask if they'd be willing to organize your office or help you draft an important email. That will really get their attention since this service-oriented sign is often attracted to people who need their help. But don't be fooled, they can be sexy beasts in the bedroom.

blue waves hits again

I am feeling blue.... although i get along with most of the new colleagues and do have some good fun at times, the long hours are tiring me but I still enjoy the challenges but the recent few days I sense my short temperness is flaring up and visible by colleagues and i started to feel stupid about it.

In addition, the isolated feelings comes back again. I felt I dont belong anywhere and that makes me very sad. Yet I cannot show it out to anyone.
However I seemed to be doing or not doing things that makes it worse for myself and people around me.

I feel trapped that I dont seem to have the courage to take a step forward in terms of S. Its clear to me that S treats me as a colleague only and my recent apparent flares of short temperness certaintly wont score me any good points in her card. Another issue I am facing now is really pertaining to leadership and managing people at work. There is an individual who gets on my nerve and she knows I am very annoyed. As much as I dont like how I am behaving, I am still struggling not to be annoyed at times.

I guess its karma, now C is very annoyed with me. Gosh...
I dont know how to handle C situations...and I really dont want C to be annoyed with me... sigh...

feeling the blues of not having someone to talk to wholeheartedly and without any other interuptions...

Phantom of the opera...

I caught Phantom of the opera on Saturday and it was my second time watching this Lloyd-Webber's phenomenal stage play.

It was about 10 years ago when I first watched Phantom of the Opera and I admit I am still a big fan of it...

This time round I didnt quite get the "high" as I did. I thought Explanade's design is slightly flawed. Anyway who am I to complain...

At least this time I get to hear the "theme" in completness, the first time round, the female singer for the character "Christin" wasnt able to hit the high note...

However I prefered the previous male singer for the character "Phantom", he was really powerful and receive stood up anchor at the end... This time round...hmm ...
I guess we had a very passive audience.

My favorite song
Phantom Of The Opera - All I Ask Of You Lyrics
No more talk of darkness,
forget these wide-eyed fears;
I'm here, nothing can harm you,
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears;
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you.

Christine
Say you'll love me ev'ry waking moment;
turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always;
promise me that all you say is true,
that's all I ask of you.

Raoul
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light;
you're safe, no one will find you,
your fears are far behind you.

Christine
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night;
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me.

Raoul
Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime;
let me lead you from you solitude.
Say you need me with you, here beside you,
anywhere you go, let me go too,
that's all I ask of you.

Christine
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.
Say the word and I will follow you.

Together
Share each day with me, each night, each morning.

Christine
Say you love me...

Raoul
You know I do.

Together
Love me, that's all I ask of you.

Anywhere you go let me go too

Love me...
that's all I ask of you.

dick lee sings We Are Singapore! cool version..

Lousy day

Today didnt went well at work... and I am still being annoyed and worst of all, I dont like to be annoyed and also part of me dont feel good at all for being annoyed.

Anyway I decided to leave around 830pm. I straight away asked my eye candy if she wants to leave with me, which is something I never do before. It would always be me waiting for her to ask, or I leave without asking because I dont dare to even ask. However, today I just stood up and told her that I am leaving and if she would like to leave together. Yes I know it doesnt sound anything out of the ordinary, however given the fact I am always "shy" around her, its quite out of the ordinary for me. She was still in midst of her work, and she got a shock, but she still leave with me...yeah!!!

We spoke more again tonight... I still havent have the courage to ask the attached question. I gathered from tonight all her siblings are married already...
Suddenly a thought came to me, that she might be staying with her partner already...
So many questions/assumptions I should just ask... Somehow I am still finding it uncomfortable to ask.

Ate too much

I had to work today as we are due to present demonstration to our client and my big bosses have declared today as a working day. I thought I should treat myself to a big breakfast thinking there will be no good lunch. To my surprise, my big bosses treated the team to lunch at a nearby Chinese restaurant. It was not only good but also alot...

My eye candy was sitting beside me... I have not been talking much to her since the past one week... I asked her what time she intends to leave today. She told me she had a birthday party to go to, and I immediately asked if its her birthday party. She told me it was her niece's birthday party and she has not gotten a present yet. After lunch she asked me what to get for her niece. After a brief moment of thinking I suggested to get a small pouch for her niece. She seem to accept the idea as she had no idea what to get for her niece.


I met my date after work.


My date brought me to the famous smooth and tender chicken rice stall in Queentown which I have not been to for a long long time...

I noticed this skillful poh pia skin maker who was focused and fast... As I admired his skillfulness I also cant help to wonder if he gets lonely at work?


After our quick dinner bite, we went to the nearby driving range to check it out... I found a rather cool Brazilian restaurant along with the driving range. Nice place to hang out for the family, kids/father playing golf while the mums spend the day at the spa next to it.

Tired

Tired... Alot of things at work and I am getting more and more annoyed by some people at work.

At the same time, the "unsecured" part of me remains uncertain to take steps towards "S". Its too risky even that she is my colleague, so I told myself to let it go. ( the song seems to be ringing in my head .. "but if I let you, I will never know what my life would be, holding you close to me..."


She seemed to be avoiding me too... she no longer ask me to lunch.

:(