bad designs

I noticed most of the MRT stations for SMRT have new resting "bench"...I do not know what its called.

I tried it and realised I am better off remain standing... Try it and you know what I mean.

Advance Bonus

Well my company just released finanicial result and we did pretty well, so there will be bonus for all. Of course I got my share of it, although little still feel good. Haha

I am having a headache and its abit unusual for me, I had beer last night, but only experienced hangover after lunch today.

I had a surprised SMS from someone asking my permission to date me? I could not reply...

Unexpected call

I got an unexpected call from my ex-boss and asking if I would be interested to do ad-hoc freelance consulting work.

Of course I am thrilled about it.
I am also glad that I was remembered in a pleasant way.

Lazy sunday...

I had a rather lazy sunday and went for massage...
I dropped by the library after that and was happy to find some interesting books but I didnt brought my IC out so I had to go home empty handed. The temperature of the air conditioner was so low, I could not stay within the library long enough to have a decent good read of the book...

This morning , there was a heavy downpour and it makes waking up a little difficult...
The moment I reached office, my team lead asked me to stand in for him in a meeting with our boss. That robbed me time to do what I planned to do in the morning which is to complete my mins of meeting and send it out to the clients...

I had planned to go off on time if not just slightly late but I ended up still quite late...

Why things are not moving

Well firstly things dont always go the way we want it, or does it?

I do think things go in certain way/manner due to largely our subconcious mind barring any "Acts of God".

Assuming there were no "acts of God", then what we think about should come true. So why I think about didnt come true? answers lies in subconcious thoughts... If I were to obseve my thoughts... alot are really not serving m ein good ways and I wish I had know it earlier, then I would have been much happier by now... Yet knowing it now, should give me enough incentive to change my course of thinking ... I am not as strong as I used to...

Probably, all i need now is just exercise and keep myself busy in a healthy way.

Bottle Tree village

I thought of going in to office to finish off some stuff... I felt lazy and afterall it was not that crucial to be ready on Monday so I thought it would be nicer to bring my nephew to Bottle tree village instead. He wanted to also join in the fishing like the rest of the kids. I didnt thought it would be a good idea to buy the fishing equipment or rather to fish since I had already experienced the last time when we went to Qian Hu... all the fishes died a few days later and I had to be the one to do everything. Its not that I mind doing, it was really because, I dont have the knowledge on how to rear fishes...and I hate to see them die because of our incompetence...

So instead I told my nephew to just have fun by trying to catch it with his own bare hands... anyway I knew he dont dare to... At least it would give him a chance to step into the little pond and try to catch the guppies..

He was really having fun... and i suppose too excited that he slipped and fell onto the rocks...luckily it was a slight fall... His shorts were wet as a result I took him home immediately. Good thing I was driving...

I honestly love you

I got to know this song "I honestly love you" from the late Leslie Cheung... I know the original singer is Olivia Newton - John... However I have not hear the original version... I got a rush to find out how the original version... I only manage to find the a concert version by Olivia... I like it just as much...

Artist: Olivia Newton-John Lyrics
Song: I Honestly Love You Lyrics
Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say

I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In anoother place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leaving it at this

I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly love you

Night out @ la cafe

We had a project status meeting and followed by drinks session at La Cafe... There was only finger food served... but it was a good chance to get to know the rest of the other teams in the same project. I was kinda "low" that my eye candy was not going...

Nonetheless, it was rather good chance to build networks with other colleagues... whom I may have to work together on this project which will last 2 years.
I really like the way the company runs ie... they are very big in building networks and respect for individual. Thereafter a small portion of us proceeded to roof for another round of drinks.

I realised throughout the night, my mind is full of my eye candy... and managing it appropriately because I dont know anything about her and she probably engaged... sigh... sounds pessimistic? I like to think I am being realistic in managing my imagination. Nonetheless I still want to get to know her...

Yet I just tease her all the time... like for not getting me breakfast and owning a white color jeans which I think its ugly...

Hectic @ work

Hmm... my only 'pleasure' from work now is the fact that S is sitting in front of me and sometimes we go lunch together ( just the 2 of us )...

Well obviously nothing romantic but I always try to find out more about her and very subtly...

She is quite friendly and aggressively assertive at time...
Yup I observe her, if nothing else happen at least its a form of entertainment for me haha

Yes I am moody... gosh i should just get wasted with drink this weekend since there's company drinking session on this friday. Then again knowing myself... I wont let myself drunk in any situation...

I need to find a time and place where i can be undisturbed so that I can pen down my thoughts and state clearly what's going on in my mind, so that I can see ( what i wrote ) whats wierd thinking is going on and on... I feel very clustered... as in my thoughts.


Sound of thunders as I am writing this... looks like a heavy rain for tonight. Its been a long long time since I walk in the rain...

Aware outdoor challenge 2007

I was at AWARE outdoor challenge 2007 yesterday with my new colleagues and my boss, participating in Combat Laser. The weather was sunny and breezy... It was a good day at the beach. We were unprepared since all of us were very busy in our project and most of us only got to know each other on that day itself.

My boss is indeed sporting considering her workload is heavy and she is older than us... Very impressed.

It was a good break from working long hours at work during weekdays.

Check out the photos

How to sell yourself in 10 simple ways

Its a good thing I happened to pick up the newspaper's CATS section today.
A good article on how to sell yourself in 10 simple ways.


Believing in yourself is the key to it...
1. You must believe in the product ( You )
2. The packaging must grab attention.
Everything about you must
look good and you must dress appropriately for the occasion.
3. Smile - pleasant and friendly manner
4. Remember names.
5. Watch the other person. Is he/she comfortable with you or a bit nervous?
6. Listen and look like you are listening
7. Be interested
8. Talk positively
9. Mirror the other person
10. Be warm and friendly

Where are you not being true to yourself?

All blocks arise when we’re not being authentic, when we’re not being true to ourselves. We know we’re not being authentic when we feel discomfort of any kind.

When our thoughts, feelings and actions align with our essence, we express the qualities of soul. Always trust that your soul knows what’s best for you.

Believe in yourself and act on your ideas. Give yourself permission to do what you want with your life. Take the initiative to set meaningful goals for yourself and achieve them. Begin to tell yourself why you CAN have what you want!

Nice evening out

I was really tired as I didnt slept well the night before, so I wanted to go home earlier. Yet I felt quite moody that I dont want to go home earlier.

Thankfully... I got a friend who was also looking for a company for a dinner. We went to PS cafe first to try our luck as I lost the contact number and couldnt call to find out. It was crowded so we went to clarke quay instead. We had dinner ( which was already 9 pm ) at a scottish bistro. The place is rather cool as the waiter wears knilts and the furnitures are comfortable too. The best part has got to be the food. It was great! ( At least to the both of us ). shortly after our food has arrived, the place was crowded with foreigner/expats who looks like the night just started and it was noisy that we left immediately after we were done with food since it was difficult to communicate in that noisy environment, otherwise I would be glad to stay longer.

Stiff shoulder and neck

My weeks and the coming ones will be packed with meetings (I literally have no breaks during work except for lunch ), which will mean that lots of minutes of meeting to be written there after and lots of things to analyse and design. I have been staying back late and although I am exhausted but I still rather happy too.

There are better colleagues, better environment and more exposures. For example, my company is strict about projecting professional image and it has at least 5 pages written on it. The color and style of blazer will project different type of impression. The right color combination. Of course this should be natural to those of us who are so in tune with office dress code...

I most appreciated the open-ness in that I can speak to my boss and my boss would speak to me to exchange ideas... So unless local companies which enforce the top-down approach.


I am even more happy that I bought a new set of blazer and pants at a total of below $100.00. Good deal for me as I almost bought the set from Espirit at $220 which luckily I didnt buy because the length was too long and it was CNY they dont have seamtress to do the amendments. That turns out to be a $100 savings which can be used for my Phantom of the opera show ticket.

I was moody and eating alot again as my monthly cycle begins to take it natural course... I need a shiasu massage desperately.

Labordor Park

I was so tired as I was too worried about the meeting with my project managers when I realised my team lead will not be with me in that meeting, that I couldnt sleep the night before and I also didnt sleep well on the night after the meeting.

I felt unhappy that I did not deliver a good information in that meeting... As much as I remind myself that I did my best... I still have some internal critism that I should have done better...

Anyway, sat morning I still wake up rather early around 830am ( early by comparison to most people in Singapore ). Although I did slept I was still very drained physically... and it lead me to remind of things I want/desire and yet have not achieve.... Yes I was aware not to go to the downward spiral...

I wanted to go out to get some sunshine and workout but I was so exhausted to move my butt and yet mentally overactive that I cant sleep more to get the rest I deserve.

I did manage to have a friend to accompany me at night... to have a game of billard...and a night drive... too. At the billard pool centre, I noticed a group of boys and one gal playing at a table. The young gal was wearing a low waist pair of jeans. It was so low that her butt clevage was already showing without her bending her body, it was even more obvious when she bend at her play of billard...
It was very obvious to me that the guys are obviously able to have a good view from where they were.

I told my friend that i dont understand why young gals have to wear low waist jeans till that level. In my opinion that female should project 'you have to earn it' rather that 'i dont mind, just see it'... mentally in terms of dressing.
Of course I am not saying its wrong to be sexy... but it should be sexy with class and not cheap...Its better to project good impression based on healthy self-respect and decency.

Anyway this is my personal opinion.