anxious, worry

Yes swam by feelings of sadness... regarding my career.
As much as I try to think positive, I am also wondering have I become 'soft' ...
sleepless for 2 nights... Hopefully I can sleep well tonight.

*Never cease to pray*... I admit I lacked disclipine to pray, sometime even the faith to pray too.

Today, someone smiled at me at the canteen. I didnt know who she was, as I was introduced to a stream of new faces yesterday, I smiled back just in case and not to offend anyone.

Later, she walked pass my partition and asked if we know each other, because she found me very familiar. I was suprised as I do not find her familiar at all. She asked if I was from A.I or NYJC... My eyes widen and I replied that yes I was from A.I. Whats your name... ?

When she mentioned her name, it rang a bell... I tried her to recollect how she looked back then...wow its been more than 10 years already. She was a schoolmate whom we are not close at all during those days.

She looked different... I couldnt recognize her at all. Noticed she had wedding ring on already. Glad for her.

I really hope she wont remember much about me. I admit I wasnt the popular person back then. It was a friendly and short conversation of finding out who each other is. It suddenly hit me that where are all my sec friends now... I have lost touch with alot of them... Guess this also contribute to a sudden swing of sadness too.


yah i am feeling weird... and still reminding myself to be positive.